When I got back from my insane month-long trip through Europe in September I was surprisingly in a bit of a dark place. My already Big Picture perspective was now greater, which I essentially viewed as my existence being even more inconsequential to the world as a whole than I had already been believing. Also, in the terms of creativity, I had seen some of my favorite Old Master artworks that inspired me my entire life, which, in my negative mind state weeks later, reminded me that any work I make would never live up to that level of emotional power or notoriety. I was in a deep and heavy funk.
But like every sport cliché you can think of, I knew I had to play through the pain. I arranged dozens of shoots in the first weeks back despite already having a huge backlog of images to process from before I left and no time to even look at the images I began shooting. I just knew I had to keep making work, force the negativity and poisoned thoughts out.
I’d like to say I am over that now, but who can really say. I’m better than I was, much better actually. Now I’m just dealing with all the other real world negative ramifications left over from the last week of the trip that shockingly is costing me more than I ever could have dreamed.
Still, life is good. Again, keeping a proper perspective on things can make any dark spot a little brighter. Sometimes you’ve just got to do your best with any given situation, deal only with what is right in front of you, force yourself to keep moving, and suck it up. Despite all my luck this year, 2013 was a tough one for myself and many others I care about. Let’s finish out this year strong and be hopeful for a better 2014.
Man, I picked a bad time to stop drinking.